After running around all over the place for so many years, trying to find myself. I had finally come home. I disconnected from the world around me. All I cared about was my family and my life within the house. I never expanded myself out of it.

I actually didn’t feel the need of it. I was too content within the confines of it. What I have within made me extremely happy and my heart full.

I have few clients and some come through word of mouth. I am and was very happy working with them.

However, as Change is the only constant. The next change in my life came and my son went off for his higher studies when he turned 18 and I turned 49.

I have been dreading for this day. I always thought that I won’t be able to manage myself. I couldn’t even imagine my life once he moved out. But nothing of that sorts happened. Infact my heart expanded, for him and for others too.

He had been my life’s centre, will always be.The special bond we share is so precious.  The love I have felt around him and for him can’t be expressed in words. It has been a priviledge to be able to enjoy and spend all the time with him. I know now it’s time for him to fly, to know himself,  To know his skies, his boundaries, his stregnths, his shortcomings.

For the very first time in my life I took a PAUSE.

That is when I understood the meaning of puase in my life. It was as if everything stopped for a while for me.

It was the first time when I did nothing.I went for naturopathy, got massages done, ate clean food, breathed fresh air.  For some reason I had no worries, no anxiety. I still felt the same with him there hundred of miles aways from me as if he was sitting in the next room.

It was quiet. It was refreshing.

I did think hard if I was running away from my      feelings, whether this was not what it felt.

But it was just that,

A PAUSE !

This time off made me realise that heart only knows how to love. To love is to let the other be. To give space to other to grow, experiment, expand, express. Finally I longed to reach out and work. My heart felt like sharing all I have learnt over the period of time.

In this PAUSE I realised it is now time for me to create something else for myself.
A new chapter is about to begin. Not only for him but for me as well 🙂

I realised I lived my heart out with him around me, now I am preparing myself to live, love, explore my life further more. This is one area of my life where I can say I gave my 100%

This will make us grow in our own space. In my opinion it is important in any relationship to be co-dependent rather than being dependent on the other for your happiness. It takes aways the soul of the relationship. It eventually becomes a burden.

What are your thoughts around this, Have you experienced this kind of love?
Who do your think it can be extended towards?

From my heart to yours <3